Unbearable Pain: A Personal Struggle With the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome
It was a overcast Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense sensation bloomed behind my right eye. It was followed by quick jolts, reminiscent of electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the pain eased and then returned with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried paracetamol, but the pain remained unbearable.
The headaches returned repeatedly that fall, and again in spring, soon forming an yearly cycle. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: aura in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-on pain in class by mid-morning. In late 2019, a GP eventually sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.
Cluster headaches often begin with intense pain behind a single eye that lasts for several hours.
Approximately one in 1,000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically begin with sudden, severe pain focused on one eye that peaks within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face sweating. I have the episodic form, which arrives in periodic cycles; others have chronic attacks, characterized by the lack of long pain-free periods.
What unites sufferers is the intensity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another discovered 64% of cluster patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the figure dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.
Val Hobbs, 74, a long-term patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, similar to several triggers, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home.
Her family often mistook her attacks as drunken episodes. Support finally came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.
Still, the failure to organize daily activities around erratic attacks took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.
Headaches have been documented across the ages. “The earliest description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a book on the topic. They linked the ailment to an malevolent entity who attacked his victims' heads.
Historical medical texts propose unusual remedies for what modern observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a separate disorder, with treatments ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.
It was a European physician who provided the first detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.
Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by global medical committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel that delivers blood to the head. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the condition explain this.
In the late 1990s, researchers published the results of a study for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.
Despite such progress, identification remains delayed. One man's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four operations before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a physician researched his symptoms.
Neurologists say delays in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary headache conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to specialist centers. But many first go to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.
A charity trustee, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She believes dentists still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in 2021; a reassuring advisor guided them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode eased.
Official guidance on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the bouts of well-known individuals.
But leading specialists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the cycle determines the treatment.” Short bouts with occasional episodes are handled with abortive therapy alone. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an injection into the side of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.
The national guidelines need revising to reflect a